Crash Site

Welcome to my Now Page, my thoughts and what I’ve been up to lately. Loosely inspired by my friend Jack Grimes’ format. You’re reading the 2/25/25 version of this page; when it’s gone, it’s gone.

Making

I am SO friggin excited to actually make stuff again. I’ll mention why in a bit, but I feel like I’ve got my spark back. It’s been so long, and I’m gonna sink my teeth into it like an animal and hold onto it for as long as I can. First up, I’m gonna redo some character bios, and actually write out ideas for characters that’ve been bouncing around in my head. I realized it’s been five years since I made my fursona, so I definitely think it’s time I give his bio a refresh, then move on to other characters.

On the engineering side of things, someone showing me a card game at Fur Squared had this incredibly cool deck box with a two-part hinge, where the top card-facing side AND one of the long sides hinge down and there’s a cutout so you can grab cards really easily. I can’t find the file online for the life of me, so I’m just gonna make it myself. It’s been a hot minute since I’ve touched Solidworks, but I need some practice with that anyway.

Lastly, I went to a panel on making Kandi bracelets and realized it’s actually pretty great. Creative, but it’s kind of a lower-overhead activity, not like drawing or writing which I find take a lot of thinking for me. Not quite instant gratification, since it does take some work, but the final product comes together a lot quicker than other hobbies I have! Plus, the very nature of Kandi as a very grassroots community thing is something I love. Maybe since JoAnn is going out of business, I’ll grab some cheap supplies there.

Doing

This last weekend was Fur Squared, and I think going was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I’ve said this for years now but the con just keeps getting better and better, and I met up with SO many of my friends from around the country! Weirdly enough, I have no post-con depression, it’s more like post-con inspiration. I don’t wanna get really sappy about it, but it’s an amazing feeling after not having much motivation for a long, long time. I’m trying to moderate myself so I don’t fall into a “I just wanna do everything” paralysis or start ignoring schoolwork, but there’s just so much I could do.

Thinking

I came away from F2 thinking about a few things: A) I can’t afford not to be myself, and it’s always worth putting in the work; B) you don’t become who you want to through inaction; and C) no mater how much of a weirdo I am, I’ll always be among friends. Yeah, I’ve heard things like this a lot, but it’s a lot different from feeling it. I’d rather I feel this way during a time that it wasn’t existentially terrifying to just exist in this country, but I’ll take what I can.

Watching

For Valentine’s Day, my friends who run our geek club’s anime night picked Fruits Basket, and I absolutely did not expect to get as into it as I did. I’m not a big romance person, the only romance anime I’ve watched is Given because it’s so laser-targeted at me (it’s a band anime! AND they’re gay! AND Jonah Scott is in it!), but it hooked me basically right away. Something cute and uplifting but not insubstantial is more often than not what I’m craving when I’m having a tiring day, and Fruits Basket is just that.

While it’s kinda on my backburner, I’m still watching Wonderful Precure, and it just continues to get cuter. It is ultimately a kid’s show so I guess I can only expect so much, but I wish the pace would pick up a bit. I’m on episode 11 and it’s feeling a little slow. Still, it’s great for a light-and-fluffy watch, and there’s some good lines, like dog-turned-human Komugi telling Otacon-type guy Satoru that his rabbit says he’s a real one.

On my radar lately have been Severance season 2, which looks like it somehow dials up the weird and ominous factor from the first season, and Beastars, which I swear I’ll actually get around to after all this time! I heard that it’d be only 3 seasons and got worried that it would have to rush through the last 2 arcs from the manga, but I didn’t realize that it would be split into 2 12-episode cours. That gives me a lot more hope it’ll do the story justice, and maybe improve the slightly rushed pacing of the ending a bit.

Reading

Sooooo I haven’t read that much lately, just a few pages of All Systems Red from the Murderbot series. That’s a reread, but it’s been long enough since I’ve read it that I’ve forgotten all but the broad strokes. Other than that, I’ve downloaded Caliban’s War and Guards! Guards!, since reading’s so much better than doomscrolling. Somehow I’ve never read Discworld, so I think Guards! Guards! is gonna be up next. There was a panel at Fur Squared about furry novels, which I missed but found the list of recommendations from, so I’ll check those out too. I’ve been meaning to read more furry books for a while, but never knew where to start.